Hello, my name is Kathy Dorman a recovering addict. I currently volunteer for Washington Goes Purple in Hagerstown Maryland. I’m also a volunteer worker out of the Office of Consumer Advocate as a peer recovery coach and I am also a volunteer for Conquering Opiate Abuse Together through AmeriCorps.
I’m so grateful to be a recovering addict, to still be alive to give others hope, because I remember the life of hopelessness.
My passion is to reach children and young adults who may feel hopeless or peer pressured into trying drugs. As a child, I was surrounded by family and friends who were caught in the disease of addiction. I tell people yes, I may have had a choice, but literally I had no chance, at least that’s how I felt. In and out of group homes, foster homes and the daily struggles of life; I chose to numb my pain at the age of 13 I was stealing from anyone who have medications around and it really didn’t matter what it was, as long as it made me feel better for at least a little while! Little did I know there were long-term consequences due to these choices that’s why I try to give those around me a choice and a chance.
Another reason I love being who I am today, is to share awareness that these drugs do not discriminate. Yes, I had a rough past but many of my friends did not. They grew up in nice homes and environments not like myself, but they struggled with me and sadly most of them are deceased today, because of their drug use. Most of us started with medications which helped for a little while before we needed something stronger. Heroin and cocaine were the loves of my life at the age of 18 resulting into 10 years of my life in total hell, destruction, and chaos. There were days I went without food or sleep. I can remember the Judgment people placed on me, looking at me as if I was a piece of trash. Little did they know I already thought that of myself. I did not need a reminder. Hopeless and dead inside is how I felt every day.
Today my passion is to bring a message of Hope to those who are still suffering in their addiction. I want to give them. Seed of Hope, from one addict to the other. Showing them if I can do it, you can too. See addicts need love too; if not more, because we are fighting some kind of trauma, hurt, guilt, or shame. We know we need help, but first we need someone who is willing to walk through it with us, plant that seed of Hope. How about praying for us, instead of judging us? Empathy, is trying to understand us, putting yourself in our shoes. Accepting us where we are and encouraging us to change. Building us up with confidence instead of tearing us down. My only prayer was God, if you are a real please send me someone who will love me unconditionally and help me, and he did. So my message is, please don’t give up on life or your recovery because if I can do it , you can too. Just don’t quit, and seek help, help is available.